Emptiness fills the room Like a very desolate tomb Alas how I look for You Your with me now and I am new I searched for meaning and future plans Oh what are these menacing world phantoms You said stay with me on this eve Yet you may once again believe Refreshed I am and I thank You For letting me be me Tomorrow comes as it will But all along are We The Three That guideth souls through thick and thin So that We shall ever win Their hearts back home beyond the troubles Our love

I hope that your Christmas finds you as happy and at peace as is possible in this lifetime. I know that's not always possible but when I am lost for words, I am happy to reflect on the story of God humbling himself to become a man in the form of a child. I suspect that we don't know from Scriptures a lot of what Christ endured as he lived and worked. I am grateful though for that ray of light that he represents for we, a fallen humanity. Thank You Lord for coming to save us f

After my dad passed last Spring at the age of 93, suddenly our whole daily routine came to an end. It was a hard summer of change that was kind of forced upon me. I will admit that I struggled for a while there. It was hard but I always knew that by trying to be of service to him that I had done the right things. Now I am resting. 15 or so years of intense (at times) caregiving takes its toll. I am at a point that I can rest deeply now though. No, my life if far from over, bu

Because of the trauma I suffered early on when I was diagnosed with a mental illness as a young man, (the effects were indescribably severe), I decided that I would never risk passing this along to a new generation. Hence, I decided that I would refrain from romantic relationships and choose to be a single, chaste and celibate man. Now I'm not perfect of course, but at this point in my life I can assuredly say that that was the right decision to make. While I am a perpetual s

While I was waiting to get into my new apartment I didn't have a space to break out the computer and write so I was spending a lot of time in coffees shops while not working. That got expensive after a while and now that I have settled into a little place here, I have the luxury of being able to write all I want (when not working). A lot of what I write privately has been letters to my dad who passed last Spring. It is my way of grieving and keeping his memory alive as we spe

I am sitting here wanting to post again and the words just don't want to come. That is alright though. Sometimes no words are enough. Just sitting in the presence of God. Alas though, he is permitting me to writer here now! Oh how our God is great and good. I pray to the Holy Spirit now to help me continue on my mission to promote Christian wellness as a follower of Jesus Christ. I find myself now without a church to belong to and then realized that in fact this whole world i

I made a choice a long time ago as a young man to follow Christ wherever he would lead me and that lead me to a seminary at the age of 26. It didn't turn out well. I was diagnosed with a mental illness and sent home with my parents to seek follow up care. I've spent about 32 years trying to recover from that decision I made as a young man. I now find myself at peace with myself and my family, friends and neighbors. God knows me better than I know myself. I am entrusting my fu

I have the luxury of being able to express these words and prayers to God. I believe in my whole heart that God is Three Persons, Father, Son and Most Holy Spirit in One Godhead. I believe that all of our families will be reunited in His Heavenly Kingdom which lies beyond this earthly existence in all of eternity. I have no idea what that will actually look like or feel like when we all get there. There is much to fear in this world because this is where we learn to face our

I encourage you to thank God for the times that he allows you to be alone with your own thoughts and emotions. For me this is a time to connect with the spiritual world that is, to me, very real and personal. This isn't a fantasy world, but is a reality that many seem to either reject or just ignore anymore in the name of what I don't know. I have some space now to appreciate the spiritual blessings that God has imposed on me now. I can sit in the silence and connect with our